I'm gonna start out with...
I know this might come back and kick me in the butt.
But, I'm really done holding everything in.
I'm also done being so quiet because I don't wanna blurt out what I'm thinking.
So here is EVERYTHING!
I'm fucking sick of it. Life, I don't care how amazing everything
is said to be about this thing, it's been dropping me in this hole,
That has been taking me to long to climb out of.
I'm done watching my family and friends get hurt,
and other people that are close to me.
I wish for one second that out of all these events lapping over each other.
Time would just STOP.
Just freeze.
Idk.
Thinking positive will bring positive but when
that's the last thing you want to think about, what do you do?
All I wanna think about is how will she end up?
Is he or she okay?
How is he really feeling?
Does anyone notice?
Is this REALLY how it's gonna end up?
Yeah...
I thought about everyone staying away from me,
when I'm having a hard time.
I've gotten that.
Just how do you end up getting them back,
when that moment is gone?
What if the moment never wants to go,
and you just never get those people back?
Will it hurt?
worse...
AHHHHHHHHH.
Screaming...a cure.
Laughing...a cure.
Sleeping...a get away.
Friends...a home.
"Lay back and rest your head, I'm sure if you fall asleep a miracle will happen."
What is a girl in love supposed to do...
I'm not ignoring you...I'm sorry if it feels like that,
I thought you were ignoring me...
I understand it feels like I'm ignoring you...I just couldn't get hurt anymore.
Seeing it...doesn't hurt...
It's just knowing it.
Please don't get me wrong.
I say this over and over and over again.
"They are happy...that's all that matters to me now."
It's true, I'm happy for you...just it kills me.
But dear me...I just want to yell at you...but I don't think I've ever yelled at anyone.
Why would I yell...?
Is it because it hurts?
Idk.
Happy Birthday Bro,
I wish I could be with you,
so I could really say it to your face.
I miss you so much.
And the support and comfort you gave me,
since I was a little girl.
:)
You are an amazing brother.
23 is it?
haha, you are getting old.
Why does everything have to do with money?
Why do people judge?
I wish everyone would just shut up.
You making fun of someone doesn't make you any better.
So what is the fucking point of doing it?
REALLY?
Oh yeah, you hurt someones feelings.
That's a great feeling to have.
BULLSHIT!
GET A FUCKING LIFE!!!
Why am I still here?
Trapped in memories?
Lost in thought?
I hate moving...
I hate trying to fit in.
Do I change myself to fit in with others?
Do I know how to be myself?
When someone gets mad...
do you have to through stuff?
I mean you broke the wedding plate thing...
That was a symbol of their love...
why would you break it...
over you tripping on something.
AHH!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I'm so done understand everything I wanted to understand.
I'm done being who I wanted to be.
Fill in the pieces.
<3
O-ECS
I know this might come back and kick me in the butt.
But, I'm really done holding everything in.
I'm also done being so quiet because I don't wanna blurt out what I'm thinking.
So here is EVERYTHING!
I'm fucking sick of it. Life, I don't care how amazing everything
is said to be about this thing, it's been dropping me in this hole,
That has been taking me to long to climb out of.
I'm done watching my family and friends get hurt,
and other people that are close to me.
I wish for one second that out of all these events lapping over each other.
Time would just STOP.
Just freeze.
Idk.
Thinking positive will bring positive but when
that's the last thing you want to think about, what do you do?
All I wanna think about is how will she end up?
Is he or she okay?
How is he really feeling?
Does anyone notice?
Is this REALLY how it's gonna end up?
Yeah...
I thought about everyone staying away from me,
when I'm having a hard time.
I've gotten that.
Just how do you end up getting them back,
when that moment is gone?
What if the moment never wants to go,
and you just never get those people back?
Will it hurt?
worse...
AHHHHHHHHH.
Screaming...a cure.
Laughing...a cure.
Sleeping...a get away.
Friends...a home.
"Lay back and rest your head, I'm sure if you fall asleep a miracle will happen."
What is a girl in love supposed to do...
I'm not ignoring you...I'm sorry if it feels like that,
I thought you were ignoring me...
I understand it feels like I'm ignoring you...I just couldn't get hurt anymore.
Seeing it...doesn't hurt...
It's just knowing it.
Please don't get me wrong.
I say this over and over and over again.
"They are happy...that's all that matters to me now."
It's true, I'm happy for you...just it kills me.
But dear me...I just want to yell at you...but I don't think I've ever yelled at anyone.
Why would I yell...?
Is it because it hurts?
Idk.
Happy Birthday Bro,
I wish I could be with you,
so I could really say it to your face.
I miss you so much.
And the support and comfort you gave me,
since I was a little girl.
:)
You are an amazing brother.
23 is it?
haha, you are getting old.
Why does everything have to do with money?
Why do people judge?
I wish everyone would just shut up.
You making fun of someone doesn't make you any better.
So what is the fucking point of doing it?
REALLY?
Oh yeah, you hurt someones feelings.
That's a great feeling to have.
BULLSHIT!
GET A FUCKING LIFE!!!
Why am I still here?
Trapped in memories?
Lost in thought?
I hate moving...
I hate trying to fit in.
Do I change myself to fit in with others?
Do I know how to be myself?
When someone gets mad...
do you have to through stuff?
I mean you broke the wedding plate thing...
That was a symbol of their love...
why would you break it...
over you tripping on something.
AHH!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I'm so done understand everything I wanted to understand.
I'm done being who I wanted to be.
Fill in the pieces.
<3
O-ECS
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