It's weird how so many of us that are so much alike,
are so different as well.
From my eyes lately...I don't see anything different with anyone.
Maybe because I feel a little lost.
I mean we are all human.
We all have things in common.
A big one? how about this...feelings.
Everyone has them, and no matter how you look,
something can effect them.
Music has been keeping me sane,
and not wanting to scream.
Every felt like you are left out.
and when you are watching everyone else have fun,
or are making sense of things.
You are the one lost sitting there confused.
There is no way I'm saying I'm the only one, or that this will always be how it is for me.
I feel right now, nostalgic.
There was this one perfect day looking back in time.
That time?
It was the summer, I had just gotten back from the Philippines.
I missed family but was glad to see my friends again.
I had met a new friend/person I knew but never talked to.
Corben VR and Justin S.
There were relationships that didn't bug me.
I knew when I was down this group of friends would be there.
Yeah, the grouped fought, but they also could talk to each other when needed.
We were always at this one park or 7/11.
Everyone laughed on that day, and everyone had a smile on their face.
It felt then that we would always be somewhat close.
That group fell apart a little later.
Now no one talks to each other, but the few that are still close.
One major group into what personally is like 4 or 5 different groups now.
And even a few people that just had to find new friends.
These where the people there the day of the park:
Jennifer R.
Kerry C.
Corben VR.
Justin S.
Adam V.
Mike P.
Gage H.
Pat N.
Zack J.
Abe T.
This group never seemed to fail to make me smile or laugh.
Yeah we didn't always get along, but nothing with ever be 100% perfect.
But now, no matter what this friendship group will never be close again.
Because not one of them would really try to be friends with every single one of them,
all over again.
They say to much drama, or they make me mad, or eww, or something stupid.
and right now, I notice...that is how drama is made.
We say things...we say our feelings.
No matter what, no matter HOW HARD YOU TRY, there will always be drama.
and no one can change that, why?
because everyone's feelings tell them at one point we gotta get sick of each other.
So in school now, we have groups, and I mean noticed groups set from the big group.
Group one that people point out first:
Kerry C, Corben VR, Victoria C.
Group two that people point out:
Michelle P, Lance G, Linsay..., Michael M.
Group three:
Pat N, Zack J, Gage H.
Group four:
Christian W, Katie R, Tabbie S.
Group five:
everyone else.
Everyone went into their own paths.
and I'm not saying change is totally bad or good.
or that these groups mean anything.
Just there was at least one person in each one of these groups,
that use to be in this main big group.
So how does things really change this fast?
Fate?
Feelings?
What?
Corben VR.
Justin S.
Adam V.
Mike P.
Gage H.
Pat N.
Zack J.
Abe T.
This group never seemed to fail to make me smile or laugh.
Yeah we didn't always get along, but nothing with ever be 100% perfect.
But now, no matter what this friendship group will never be close again.
Because not one of them would really try to be friends with every single one of them,
all over again.
They say to much drama, or they make me mad, or eww, or something stupid.
and right now, I notice...that is how drama is made.
We say things...we say our feelings.
No matter what, no matter HOW HARD YOU TRY, there will always be drama.
and no one can change that, why?
because everyone's feelings tell them at one point we gotta get sick of each other.
So in school now, we have groups, and I mean noticed groups set from the big group.
Group one that people point out first:
Kerry C, Corben VR, Victoria C.
Group two that people point out:
Michelle P, Lance G, Linsay..., Michael M.
Group three:
Pat N, Zack J, Gage H.
Group four:
Christian W, Katie R, Tabbie S.
Group five:
everyone else.
Everyone went into their own paths.
and I'm not saying change is totally bad or good.
or that these groups mean anything.
Just there was at least one person in each one of these groups,
that use to be in this main big group.
So how does things really change this fast?
Fate?
Feelings?
What?
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