Soul Art.

"Music is what feelings sound like."


"Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and cannot remain silent."


And with that.
Music is AMAZING!


I don't think anyone or anything can understand someone
as well as music can.



I don't know why that is.
But
I
Simply
Love
It
.




Well, I have to say...
Today was the happiest I've been in a while.
I think it might be because I did NOTHING
in school today.
(:

It was super amazing.
First block...of B days.
Band: Played, but I got to run around the band room.
And E and I are talking again,
and there is no awkwardness, well for me there isn't.
Math: Played Rock Band in class.
Japanese: Had a party. Played Rock Band, had food, danced, took pictures.
Biology: We took notes on a movie, then went outside to find Easter eggs.


To me that was a REALLY laid back day.
Something I needed.







"Adorable illusion"

You know,
I care about you. I really REALLY super do. I can't say you are my everything, because that would be a lie above all. Everything changed between us...well all of us. My heart broke into pieces and from that a lot changed...well a lot changed even before my heart broke and my eyes blurred and my sanity disappeared. I use to be able to speak for you, like 2 peas in a pod. Weird how I can't even say we are close now. I think it is worse that we kinda hide from each other. Like I think I'm in a shell, and to talk to you or any of you is so outta my comfort line. Lately, I've been going pass my comfort zone, which makes me kinda hide later, or just want to zone out later. When we hug, I wish you wouldn't let go, just let me feel that I'm loved. You know I'm scared. I think everyone can tell I'm scared...or as some people put it...I look upset. I guess you can't tell the difference in me. Which could be a problem since those are 2 separate feelings. When we are dancing around I wish those smiles we have plastered to our face, wouldn't fade. I wish at some point you would smile at me and tell me everything outta your mouth wasn't always a joke. I wish you would talk to me and say hey for once. I wish people would be like that one bank commercial where one person does something nice which makes another person do something nice that just spreads. I understand we aren't as close as we use to be, I understand you guys are all amazing close, and me fitting in isn't the easiest thing. I love that you are trying though. Thank you. Today you didn't have to just walk away, that was very rude. When he is being nicer then you, that isn't right. It's normally the other way. Also why are you so mean? I don't think you should be. I mean I can't change you, nor do I want to...I just hate that you dis on my friends and me. I'm glad we met, you are pretty sweet. Your words to me are amazing, I know I can go to you when I need to smile. When I need to laugh, I know it's you and a few others that can just make me almost fall out of a chair laughing so hard. It's easy to talk to you. It's awkward to talk to you. I'm scared to talk to you. You talk to me. I hide from you. I run after you in the halls just to say hi and give you a hug. I wonder about you. I love that when I'm with you we pretty much just lay back and chill. You all entered my world in different ways, some in not so amazing ways, and some in ways I'll never forget. This isn't about just one person, it's about people that matter to me, or people I have contact with, or people that have changed my life in some way. Almost each sentence is about a different person, not all though.

I
Am
In
Love
I
Bet
You
Would
Have
Never
Guessed
That
.


That
Is
Right
,
I
Am
In
Love
With
You
.
(:




"I miss the old days that we murdered
They're so far gone, out of reach
Watch 'em fade with summer's heat."