Gaming.

Life.

I think I see it more like a game now.

And everyday you are rolling dice.

But on this game, there are a lot of

GO BACK 3 SPACES.

But there are times you get continue with no problem.

It's almost like the game of Life,

but with a twist.

I was proud of myself lately.

I hadn't cried in...Idk..a month maybe.

and 2 days ago, I broke it.

and while crying...I yelled at myself for crying...which made me cry more.

Sad? I think so. Haha.

but I learned at lunch today,

if you cry, you live longer.

is that true?

I'm not sure what is going on.

I seem to want to cry at everything today.

It's not helping I'm normally emotional.

But not I'm like SUPER emotional.

First block today at school,

we made Carpe Diem lists,

aka bucket lists.

(:

yeah, that was our classwork.

Amazing I personally think.

They were SUPER funny.

I mean it was crazy, I couldn't stop laughing.

But when I wrote mine, I didn't think we were sharing it to the class.

I was reading mine, and almost started to cry.

Personally that would have been REALLY bad.

I have a few questions for anyone willing to answer.

1)Do you think it's using someone if you still have feelings for someone else,

and you want to ask them out?

2)Why can't ex's be friends?

How does it end up normally getting complicated?

Today I was talking to an ex,

and he helped out a lot.

At first I was like I don't want to ask out E.

I would feel as if I'm using him to make myself happy from my drifting mind.

and he said, isn't that was the guy is for in a relationship, to make you happy?

and to show you he cares?

It's weird, because when I think about ex's he's one of the few that I'm still REALLY close to.

Then we started talking about why do ex's always fight and the next thing you know,

you will never talk again...and everything becomes an awkward distant shadow.

I'm not sure I know what I'm talking about in this blog.

But I vented in a weird way.

Yesterday was amazing.

Buh byee.

O-ECS